Dear God,

Many months ago I sat in my car, looking out over a black lake, the moon shining brightly and I cried and prayed for a miracle. As  months progressed, things have gone from bad to worse. There is so much pain now for so many. The people closest to me know bits and pieces of this terrible time that my children and I are going through. It is tearing my family apart.

Lord, please don’t let me be so lost in my own pain that I forget the pain of others. Please don’t let me forget the tears that others are shedding as well. Father, please give comfort to those who have suffered great losses, for there are many Father, more than I know, but You have Your eyes on each and every one. Please don’t let my heart become so callous with my own fear and pain that I no longer have compassion for them.

God, each of us in our own way have contributed to the events swirling out of control around us. Lord, You see the bigger picture, the end result of the course that we are all on. Father, I once again am asking You for a miracle. I pray for a hedge of protection around my children. Like a rebellious child I tried to resolve things in my own way, with my own understanding. Look where that’s gotten me. Nowhere.

"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose." [Romans 8:28] I cannot make myself believe that everything that we are experiencing now does not serve a greater purpose. It would be too tragic if it didn’t. You created a universe full of marvels and mysteries out of chaos. This time of sorrow and chaos for so many is not too great for You to deal with. Me, on the other hand, this is turning into a basket case. It’s time to let go and let the Master take the reins.

It’s been a long time since I believed in anything. But the one thing that I do still believe in is You. Father, please grant me a miracle for Christmas. It’s all I want and all I need. A miracle for me and my children.

Christmas is a time of miracles. The love You give is a miracle. All Your blessings both great & small are miracles. Turning a a lump of coal into a diamond is a miracle. If it doesn't crack under the pressure, it becomes a rare & treasured jewel. Thank You for all the miracles You have already blessed me with. All I ask, is this one particular miracle. Honestly, I don't even know what it might be. Please also grant me the wisdom to know it when I recieve it.

For those that read this entry, please join me in praying for a miracle.

Dear God, thank You ahead of time for my miracle. I know it’s on its way. And Happy Birthday!!

Love,

sassy